I Miss you!!!

I’m so lonely and weary. Started to be more emotional than before. I feel like really different after all those days. I caught myself frozen and my heartbeat seemed impeded. It has been frozen for more than a week since you’ve been gone. Abiding something that cannot be concealed. Feeling down, my heart seemed crying. Surpassing the time pretending that I can get over. It’s really hard to pretend that I'm all right knowing that I'm so lost and feeling blue. Listening to my favorite playlist over and over again just to keep me going... Hearing the song I used to offer for you. Now I don’t know how much more I can take… Now I’m calling your name again… remembering all the love you gave to me…

It has been said that life must go on… But it seems that my life stops going on… seems nothing will endure in this life… seems everything mean to nothing…. Why is it like this? Why is it like that? Why is it so? All I know now is that I’ve been missing you… I miss you!!!

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Auraeus Solito in Davao

AURAEUS SOLITO'S first feature film "Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros" won 15 international awards including 3 awards at the Berlinale (The Teddy award, International Jury Prize at the Kinderfest and Special Mention from the Children's Jury of the Kinderfest). It is also the first Philippine film nominated for Best Foreign film at the Independents' Spirit Awards in the US. It has been shown in more than 50 film festivals around the world.

“Tuli” , his second feature film, won
Best Picture and Best Director at the Digital Competition at the 2005 CineManila Film Festival and recently won the NETPAC Jury Prize at the the Berlinale, International Forum for New Cinema; 2nd Prize for Best Feature Film at the Montreal Film Festival. It is at present making the rounds in film festivals in North America, Europe, Latin America and Asia.

He is the first Filipino to make it to the premiere independent film festival in the world, the SUNDANCE Film Festival in Park City, Utah, USA; two years in a row for both “The Blossoming of Maximo Oliveros” and “Tuli”.

“PISAY (Philippine Science)” is his 3rd dramatic feature film.

After all the those awards received from many countries around the world, Auraeus Solito was invited by Gutierez "Teng " Mangansakan II to have Forum with us during our DOCUMENTARY FILM WORKSHOP last saturday. Arrived on friday, had dinner with us and discussed a lot of things about film.

Dinner with Auraeus @ ranchero's Grills along Central Bank of the Philppines.


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I jsut wnnaa sahre tihs

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at an Elingsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by itslef but the wrod as a wlohe. LOL!

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MIFC and Auraeus

Mindanao International Filmmakers' Circle welcomed the International award winning director Auraeus Solito with ascrumptious and luscious dinner at Ranchero's Grill when he arrived from manila last night. After a gloomy and ominous message from Auraeus containing the request to postpone the said FORUM because of stressful and exhausted travel from outside the country. It’s like a blast bomb fell unto us as we read the text message from Teng (head organizer). After all the advertisements and broadcasting for the publicity of the event, we got that message to postpone, damn! can you imagine...?

But altast, Auraeus made it all the way from manila, traveled and had dinner with us... I'll be posting photo later... 'til then, got to go for dinner again... with same people... hehehe! hmmmm.. nam nam nam, deliciouso!!!

IF

If there are instances that you need someone to talk to and there's no one available in time you needed it most. When you catch yourself like feeling all alone. Then, you rather put it all into writings... I have just realized that when it comes to writing, you could even articulate and alleviate all the anguish feelings within you. For in times of troubles and instability, people would really think in a pathetic way and treat themselves as a loser. Apparently, we should really have to be strong enough and conquer the poignant feeling. That might lead you into wretchedness… You’ll get lost!

If there are confusions and uncertainties, penetrate and cultivate for the reasons, harmonize and complement, you might discern the grounds until such time you'll be able to find solutions. It’s not really easy gripping stiff sentimental stuff like that.

If you catch yourself doing nothing and bored. Entertain yourself! Listen cool music on the radio or on your mobile/i-pod, watch entertaining movies on television/theatre. Stroll, go wherever you want, that might help you divert your attention. Do some stuff that would make you busy. Personally, as a dreamy and wistful dude, I’d rather spend time to unwind alone and hark back all the things happens from the past whether horrific, thorny nor wondrous experiences, despite sometimes I’m a manic and adventurous, I still confer flash for various incidents happens in my life. What duh! I’m becoming more emotional huh! LöL! ‘til here, got to go for dinner (pasmo ra ni!)… hahaha! just thought of posting what came into my mind…

A letter for me

Wishbone,

One day, I will disappear completely. The letters, the text messages, the calls over the phone will mean nothing. The world will get tired of me... You will get tired of me... I will get tired of myself, and I...and I will never get tired of you. For you, there will be NO endings. I will say your name over and over like a refrain... My prayer to no one.... Then I'll be a plant like your name, a fern. The one you'll never pick and will endure the breathless waiting until boundaries disappear.

You know I will never get far and there is no need for my return. Only travelers leave... I've never been a traveler. For I have never left. I am lost, simply wanting to be in a place that I've never been and will never be. Of all destinations, I long to be lost in the fields of your hair...In the corners of your smile... Lost among your thoughts as you are already in mine....

With nothing to do, I make new constellations images of you as I remember. All your candid innocent photos... your laughter.... your enamoring grin... There are stars from a different view, but still I see nothing but you. Unfurling like a flower, swiveling like a leaf. I once dreamed you slept beside me. It was dark then, but the darkness is deeper now. Tonight in my dreams I will see you again. My little poor good wishbone, clothed only in light...

Like a kite, I've given myself up to the wind. I made friends with the sun. Confuse the birds with strange and distant voyages, but it is you that ties the thread and holds me down. Like a kite, I will forever hold your hand and with a burning human longing in your hands, I surrender.


You are my will to live... My life started when I loved you and that's how I want it to end...You don't need to love me back... just please, let me love you...

Yours forever,

cokies

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way back in high school

THINK BACK TO 4th year High School... Let's see how much you remember and how much you regret..
Got this tag from Rhon (Si bao[sharon])! LöL:)

What section were you?
- Agoho

Who were your seatmates?
- Adrian, James, Kelvin

Still remember your english teacher?
- Yeah, Miss Quiambao (The beautiful RN girl)

What was your first class?
- M - Homeroom, WF - Physics and TTH - Journalism,

Made friends to the lower years?
- yeah from 1st year 'til 4th year level are my fRieNds... LöLÜ

How was your class schedule?
- fine, it's like my college schedules...

Made any enemies?
- hmmm, nope :)

Who was your favorite teacher?
- Mr. Edgar Retorta, Physics subject

What sport did you play?
- chess?he³ im not active in any school activities that time. im too lazy for that, i chose chess 'coz i know i don't need to exert any force, i'd rather sit down and think. softball sometimes... wew!

Were you a party animal?
- yow dude.... That's why i was baptized as Mr. Late. toiNks!! started to be a party animal when i was 2nd year.(hahaha)

Were you well known in your school?
- hmmmm... maybe!

SKIP CLASSES?
- hmmmm sometimes...

Did you get suspended/expelled?
- hmmm... nope.

- Can you sing the alma mater?

Rizal Memorial Colleges, Alma matter beloved
with brave heart and purpose high
We will seek thy portals wide knowledge to find
With spirit through we pledge to thee
Our love and loyalty
Thy honor we strive to find
Alma matter dear we vow

Where we maybe go far and wide we roam
Thy name we shall cherish
For their Rizal's enthrone

Then on, sail on
Forward to our goal
Never falter, never fail
Youth of our motherland

Laurel, sweet and fair
We'll win for thee alma matter dear...

(i'm only sure about the melody but im not sure with the lyrics)

What was your favorite subject?
- tsk tsk tsk Recess??? LOL! Computer Subject!!!! plus Science.

Did you go to the dances?
- yeah... was forced by my teacher (prom, programs arggg!)...

Where did you go most often during breaks?
- Most of the time at the canteen for special bihon and coke with keLvin, bRian, adRian, aNd james or play Starcraft at 3rd/F ComLab... or sometimes singing underneath of tree up the hill.

What did you do on the last day of school?
- Went to my Lola's place @ Catalunan Grande, almost all my classmates went there for a party!

i got one photo here... t'was taken duRiNg 3rdyear but don't woRry same faces when i moved to 4thyear! hahaha


Yamz, feRn, bRian, keLvin, adRian, eliseo and james

My 4th year high School life was absolutely a GrEat ExpeRieNce!!!
LOL!


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Constant Change!

Inevitably, sometimes certain thing has to be ended. It might be for some reasons, could be for some other opportunities to be given to others, or it could be for us to have time to explore some other things. For a tremendous growth and development, we need to be expanded and refined for it has been said that change is the only constant in life. Life really has a constant of change! Proven and really true. It might be unfair nor very iniquitous for some many others. But it always been fair enough to be unfair. People would really have to admit the fact that we are chosen to be where nor who we are, given the chance to make it even better. Considering life must really have to go on. It provides me the reasons to strive forward and value life’s simple things, for as far as I know, big things starts from a simple thing.

I have been worried for some other reasons but trying to consider as part of the things to be learned… things to be stumbled upon... and things to be the basis of a firm foundation to become a better essential person.

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Auraeus Solito Film Workshop

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Boredom!

One night, i was struck with boredom and i was like moving from one place to another. Tried to be entertained with something else... I was like roving around the corner... then I realized, it's better to check all my emails and blogs over the net. I ran towards my room and sat down in front of my pc. Clicked the browser and start exploring the net. Scanned all the folders and photos in my computer for me to cure the boredom...

All through the night, i happened to find things that recalls me in the past. I found some pictures during my college years. Reminiscing the moments that I was once a member of the Student Council staff... I kept some photos that reminds me all the pleasure and anxieties.

(Laugh... laugh... and laugh 'til stomach aches)

a simple pose with the fRiends


(Laugh... Laugh... laugh and laugh again)

Despite everything, still we found time to laugh. The moment that I will surely treasure for my entire life. I became dynamically active in some school clubs and activities (owws!!!Ü)... for I had to be one(hehehe)... and I have enjoyed a lot, really!

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A day with Morissette

Finally, the day i've been waiting for has come. The canadian independent filmmaker, Dominic Morissette shared about his experiences on creating documentary film. He screened and discussed about his master piece the "Afghan Chronicles". It was indeed a great experience to have him here in Davao. I am lucky enough to be one of the participants as we start stepping another level in the film industry. As we go along with the summer workshop conducted by Guttierez Mangansakan II, (our good friend and a filmmaker), we will be undergoing a lot of things about filmmaking… More speakers will be joining us from different places. We are expected to come up with something later as we finished the workshop. We might be given certain issue to be discussed and have it documented. Another challenges will arise soon. Another experiences… another work to comprehend… another hectic schedule… But for now, it’s a day for me to live, continue the learning I got from many others. I must go along with friends… Start exploring… I need to study more… review more… learn more… to prepare for the future. for we don’t know what lies ahead…

CANADIAN DOCUMENTARY FILM WORKSHOP

Canadian filmmaker Dominic Morrissette will be the guest speaker of the Film Documentary Workshop starting April 12, 2008 at IIPE Center, DCNHS Compd., Mabini St., (fronting Nanay Bebengs Restaurant) Davao City.

Morrissette is the director of Afghan Chronicles .

After the collapse of the Taliban regime in 2001, Afghanistan underwent a period of profound disruption. The presidential elections of 2004 followed by the election of a legislature in 2005 are evidence that the country is committed to the democratic process. After twenty-five years of war and privation, Kabul, the capital, is coming back to life and its citizens can dare to hope. Girls are back in school and there is some press freedom. But at street level, progress is still uncertain and reconstruction is a slow process. At a time when the television news is often limited to the latest sensational events, Dominic Morissette ’s Afghan Chronicles portrays the rebuilding of a country that dreams of a better future, and presents the vital issues with which this reborn society must contend. The Workshop will hold classes and lectures during the weekend of April (April 12-13, 19-20 and 26-27). Documentary projects will be produced in May. These documentaries will be screened during the 1st Salam Mindanao International Film Festival later this year.

Regular registration is PhP1,800 but early birds will have a discounted registration of PhP1,500. Students will enjoy a further reduced PhP1,200 registration.

For more information, please email the Workshop Facilitator at morofilm@yahoo.com.

Busy Sunday

As usual, i woke up late again this morning, and when i checked out my mobile 17messages received. Read it one by one, attempted to reply for the first text message but prompted unable to send message. Damn! no load at all. I turned on my pc and reply through the net. Checked my offline messages and sat down the whole day.


Ayyi chatted with me in the afternoon and reminded me about the online guesting of the BEAM STAFF, Ian D'Arcy Walsh (Australian Project Director), Ma'am Rose of Access Component, Lani as the office and Communcation Manager and Mariel as Access Project Officer on the radio station MixFM 105.9 the so-called "Viewfinder" a program every sunday between 8pm-9:40 in the evening hosted by Mienmaya Flaminda, an English teacher in Ateneo de Davao, a graduate of Masters of Arts and a filmmaker too.

Prior to that, Me and Ayyi invited the team to have pizza trip at picobello before going to the station. We ordered four(4) big pizza in different flavor, coke in can and iced tea. Discussed about the coming Canadian Workshop we'll be attending this coming weekends of April. The usual trippings... photography... filmmking... business... and the etc. Finished the food then left. Thank you bankers!

Around 7pm we dropped by @ Alchemy Vission and Light or AVL the Davao Production House. Then we headed to the station and prepare for their guesting... me, sheng, shang and coi were at the lobby of Bastis Brew and supposed to have wifi connection and continue the blogging stuff but unfortunately no connection that time. While waiting for the time... introduce each other and chatted for a while 'til D'Arcy arrived and then the program started.


The topic conversation was good and the guests made it all... Time was too short for a kilometers of information to be discussed. Good thing was that, the public society especially the youth who are the most listener were able to know about the BEAM Project and augmented their knowledge on how to Improve the Quality Education specifically here in Mindanao. The program ended at exactly 9:40pm.

Went out from the station and ate dinner with the host in a chinese restaurant along ilustre, ordered dessert, wanton noodles and drinks while continuing the topic that has been discussed. Adjourned at 10:30 then go home.


Others went home, Others still wanted to hang out, even me and so we ordered coffee @ blugre. Listening reggae music at Taboan as we can hear it from the coffee shop. Browsed the net, checked the mails and update the blogs through the laptop 'til midnight. Involuntarily intake a breath and can no longer suppress a yawn so we decided to go home and rest. Have a Göödnight!

What is this...?

One moment in my life i have noticed myseLf this previous days that i have been pLayiNg this song many times... like a hundred times a day... the song that pierced my ears into deafness, deafness to bLindness. I asked myself why do i keep playiNg this song while its hurting me inside and its even making me feel so sad? and yet happy listening 'coz in everytime i play this song i remember one person in my life that makes me smile and yet making me sad... i'm haPpy 'coz it feels so different every time i think of it, Sad 'coz it went out into a lonely hearted fools allowing days to slip it away 'til giving in but still haPpy reminiscing with the song. Why is this hapPeNing to me? why do i feel this way... You must be annoyed when you hear me playing it again and again and again... the playlist containing more than one song with the same title... this is cRazy! this is foolishness.. this is stupidity... but still keep on playing it again and again and again... but how can i stop this? maybe when i got no battery in my mobile? or maybe when it's brownout? how can i stop playing this? how can i forget this longing if its the songs that makes me feel good, and even makes me feel better and yet making me sad? ano ito...?

Good fRiday!

We walked all the way from R.CASTILLO Agdao to Shine Hills matina as our yearly routine with friends and relatives sympathizing for the sake of christ's sorrowful passion... i don't think if we're able to do purpose of being there. All we did was just taking pictures and looking around for some eyes-breaker-looks! hahaha!

here are some footages captured from my N70 Music Edition... so expect the poor quality photo...

waaaaaaahhh! bungot ni jeffia men!


jeff for a stolen shot... pahiyup sad me ni bRyan...


Mga ampaw gilukot!!! waaaaahh!